im super glued to you.

this is my message to the guy who probably won't ever know how much i love him:

the first time you met me.
you instantly liked me.
but i didn't like you at all.
as the days passed by, i got to know you better.
i had this strange feeling.
something ive never ever felt before.
i wasn't sure what it was, was it love?
or infatuation?
sure, you were really good looking.
you were really talented.
you had everything i wanted in a guy.
you were mr.perfect.
i have never loved any guy my entire life until you came.
you were my first love, but maybe not my last.
unless a miracle happens.
but those times when you liked me.
it faded away.
i felt like i was let down.
i was crushed.

now im pretty sure you don't like me anymore.
you probably don't even remember liking me at all.
4 years have passed, and you're still the guy i truly love.
i have met so many, thought i really liked them.
but i still fall back to my terrible past.
now im superglued to you.
no matter who i meet.
no matter who i start to like.
no matter who i start to develop feelings for.
you're still the guy i end up loving the most.
and i feel so stupid for still loving you after four years of being neglected and forgotten.
i can't get you out of my system.
i can't move on.
i can't forget about u...
i want you to be mine
and i know you won't.

all i want to say is that I STILL LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
and i don't know how or when will i ever forget you.
maybe never.

gerard way.

Do I really have too many crushes? Haha =p
This guy is a person that I had no idea in the world that I would like.
First impression if him? Scary as hell! I thought he was a weird freak.
Then I realized weird freaks can be cute too.
I first saw him in my chemical romance’s video for Helena.
He had long hair. His face was all white. Literally white.
And he had eye makeup on. First I don’t have anything against eye makeup on bands, but he just looked freaky.
When mcr released their 3rd album, the black parade, that’s when I started to LOVE the band AND the frontman. Haha.
Yeah, Gerard IS hot. I don’t care if he’s weird now, at least he is a bit different among others. I really like his blonde hair. But it didn’t last long. He dyed his hair black right away and he still looks cute. Oh, one more thing, we have things in common.
He’s a fine arts graduate and he has Italian blood and he likes deep dark stuff and death stuff haha.
Everything’s the same here except im not YET a fine arts graduate, soon to be in two years. Hehe

And about the band, im really addicted to them now.
Their ‘the black parade’ album is awesoooommeee..
It’s the most played in my ipod.
Anyway…If u like mcr and the used… download their collaboration, a remake of queen’s under pressure. Its great.
Yeah that too… mcr is like queen. Maybe they will be the next queen.
Gawd I love queen too.

free food [super laftrip]

It was around 2:30, and Carmie and I were in the studio and we decided to drink water in the fountain.

So we went downstairs to the canteen and Lester came along to fill his container with water.

We also saw Gatch and Ciara so we all went together.

Then Lester said that there was free taste in the Free Zone.

So the five of us went there because of course... free food's the best.

When we got there, the free food was rice and ulam... ano ulit yon? Laing? haha it was canned goods but it was really good!

There was also ginataang mais for dessert. It was just free taste so it wasn't that plenty.

But of course, we didn't want just free taste. haha we were so kapal.

carmie was given one whole bread and she asked for some more ulam from the lady, so did gatch and ciara.

i also tasted the other ulams as well.

Lester was just laughing at us and told us to tell Miko and the rest in the studio that we were having a food trip downstairs so I texted them.

When we were about to head to the studio, Lester said that there was more food in the Maryville building, main dish daw.

So we were like a bunch of starved freaks as we hurried up to the Maryville.

Whe we entered, we realized it was sort of like a SEMINAR.

it was a convo-credited cooking show.

We were like, "Whaaaaaat?!"

we were already laughing like assholes because we didn't really know what we were getting ourselves into.

We had a class in the studio! and carmie and i were just supposed to drink water!

we didn't know if we should go back to our class or just finish the show, coz we really wanted to taste the food.

until we had no choice but to sign the attendance because we were already there and we were embarassed to leave and quite afraid some will get mad if we leave in the middle of the show.

so we waited till they served the food and guess what?

it SUCKED.

we waited and risked our class time just to eat crap????

the dessert was good, it was honey stars with peanut butter and raisins.

the rest tasted like hell.

it was pancit, and it tasted like as if it was left in a bowl of patis for a day. it was GROSS.

so was the mango shake that looked like egg and tasted like... all the weird stuff mixed together.

when the girl came up and asked, "Masarap ba?"

we smiled and were like, "Oo, sarap!"

deep inside i wanted to spit it out.

Haha so that was the most memorable experience that day for us. BONDING!

oh and Sir BenCab treated me smores pa, hahahahaha! kapal ko noh??

that's all.. bleh!

disturbia

It's not yet showing but i watched it already.
i bought a dvd of it, luckily, it's clear.
it's soooooo NICE!!
of course, shia labeouf eh! hahaha...
i really ENVY the girl there.
if u like shia, and u watch it, ull know why.
it's really suspense, i nearly jumed off my seat.
i LOVE it! but i like Transformers better. Best shia film ever.
hehe.

i heart SHIA!

I always watched Even Stevens but I never really liked Shia LaBeouf there coz i thought he looked silly.

But now he's all grown up! damn! he's SOOOO hot!

he's currently in my top list of hollywood crushes...i never thought i would like him so much.

he's sooooo hot in Transformers, he's got the best charm, personality...and can i say...ARMS??? haha

i REALLy wanna watch Disturbia coz i think he's hotter there...

anyway, I LOOOVE SHIA!!!

hope she finds out.

so joan, carmie, jannette and I did something.

vicky and some other blockmates of mine who feel the same way about 'her' will do the same.

we answered a survey entitled 'Pinaka Ayaw (panama kay ano)'.

and i hope she reads it.

i actually felt so good it was like a relief.

coz she actually deserves it after everything she's done and how she's been the whole year.

she couldn't even be aware of it at all because that's how she is!

she think's she's always right and whoever she's hating on at the moment is wrong.

maybe she's reading this right now and she's like, "Who could Pat be talking about? Definitely not me!"

i even think of myself as one of the meanest girls ever for being so mad at her but it's not my fault at all that she makes me so mad.

she brings out the hater and war freak in me.

and she deserves to hear and realize all of this.

and IF she doesn't even humble herself or at least feel bad or admit she was wrong...

that's her problem. karma's waiting just around the corner.

and maybe some of you guys think this person is you, but i just wanna make you feel relieved by saying:

it's definitely not someone on my friend's list here. at least that's a little minus because i only have three friends here coz i don't know anyone else who has blogspot. haha. because why would i add her here anyway right? i even want to delete her in multiply and friendster na but i don't want to be THAT obvious. I want to take it one step at a time but she still has to find out.

and maybe she thinks im the only one who feels this way but she's got it all wrong. actually, about 8O% feels this way even a person she looked up to and a person she fell in love with (hahaha that's something i want her to find out). i wonder how she will feel.

i never even thought that i would feel this way towards her because when i first met her i really liked her.

and i don't really care if she's offended or if she wants to fight back.

she's only one person and we're a LOT.

i actually feel bad that things turned out this way in our relationship (if there is one) with her.

well, not our fault.

so i hope she's reading this.

she can curse me for all i care..

she always does anyway.

fantastic 4

Reed is charming...
Johnny is super hot...(human torch nga eh, haha)
he's...big.
she was prettier in the first one

he's...NICE!

today was my mom's birthday...

my class was 7:30-10:30am, so after that i rushed home.

around 1pm we went out and watched Fantastic 4!

super late na, good thing it was still showing.

what can i say?

it was VERY entertaining especially when compared to the first one.

I really liked it.

It was funny and cool.

Reed and Johnny were soooo charming...

i love chris and ioan...