out of the ordinary

im super glued to you.

2007-11-28T00:33:00.000-10:00

this is my message to the guy who probably won't ever know how much i love him:

the first time you met me.
you instantly liked me.
but i didn't like you at all.
as the days passed by, i got to know you better.
i had this strange feeling.
something ive never ever felt before.
i wasn't sure what it was, was it love?
or infatuation?
sure, you were really good looking.
you were really talented.
you had everything i wanted in a guy.
you were mr.perfect.
i have never loved any guy my entire life until you came.
you were my first love, but maybe not my last.
unless a miracle happens.
but those times when you liked me.
it faded away.
i felt like i was let down.
i was crushed.

now im pretty sure you don't like me anymore.
you probably don't even remember liking me at all.
4 years have passed, and you're still the guy i truly love.
i have met so many, thought i really liked them.
but i still fall back to my terrible past.
now im superglued to you.
no matter who i meet.
no matter who i start to like.
no matter who i start to develop feelings for.
you're still the guy i end up loving the most.
and i feel so stupid for still loving you after four years of being neglected and forgotten.
i can't get you out of my system.
i can't move on.
i can't forget about u...
i want you to be mine
and i know you won't.

all i want to say is that I STILL LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
and i don't know how or when will i ever forget you.
maybe never.

gerard way.

2007-08-12T00:18:00.000-10:00

Do I really have too many crushes? Haha =p
This guy is a person that I had no idea in the world that I would like.
First impression if him? Scary as hell! I thought he was a weird freak.
Then I realized weird freaks can be cute too.
I first saw him in my chemical romance’s video for Helena.
He had long hair. His face was all white. Literally white.
And he had eye makeup on. First I don’t have anything against eye makeup on bands, but he just looked freaky.
When mcr released their 3rd album, the black parade, that’s when I started to LOVE the band AND the frontman. Haha.
Yeah, Gerard IS hot. I don’t care if he’s weird now, at least he is a bit different among others. I really like his blonde hair. But it didn’t last long. He dyed his hair black right away and he still looks cute. Oh, one more thing, we have things in common.
He’s a fine arts graduate and he has Italian blood and he likes deep dark stuff and death stuff haha.
Everything’s the same here except im not YET a fine arts graduate, soon to be in two years. Hehe

And about the band, im really addicted to them now.
Their ‘the black parade’ album is awesoooommeee..
It’s the most played in my ipod.
Anyway…If u like mcr and the used… download their collaboration, a remake of queen’s under pressure. Its great.
Yeah that too… mcr is like queen. Maybe they will be the next queen.
Gawd I love queen too.

free food [super laftrip]

2007-07-25T17:37:00.000-10:00

It was around 2:30, and Carmie and I were in the studio and we decided to drink water in the fountain.

So we went downstairs to the canteen and Lester came along to fill his container with water.

We also saw Gatch and Ciara so we all went together.

Then Lester said that there was free taste in the Free Zone.

So the five of us went there because of course... free food's the best.

When we got there, the free food was rice and ulam... ano ulit yon? Laing? haha it was canned goods but it was really good!

There was also ginataang mais for dessert. It was just free taste so it wasn't that plenty.

But of course, we didn't want just free taste. haha we were so kapal.

carmie was given one whole bread and she asked for some more ulam from the lady, so did gatch and ciara.

i also tasted the other ulams as well.

Lester was just laughing at us and told us to tell Miko and the rest in the studio that we were having a food trip downstairs so I texted them.

When we were about to head to the studio, Lester said that there was more food in the Maryville building, main dish daw.

So we were like a bunch of starved freaks as we hurried up to the Maryville.

Whe we entered, we realized it was sort of like a SEMINAR.

it was a convo-credited cooking show.

We were like, "Whaaaaaat?!"

we were already laughing like assholes because we didn't really know what we were getting ourselves into.

We had a class in the studio! and carmie and i were just supposed to drink water!

we didn't know if we should go back to our class or just finish the show, coz we really wanted to taste the food.

until we had no choice but to sign the attendance because we were already there and we were embarassed to leave and quite afraid some will get mad if we leave in the middle of the show.

so we waited till they served the food and guess what?

it SUCKED.

we waited and risked our class time just to eat crap????

the dessert was good, it was honey stars with peanut butter and raisins.

the rest tasted like hell.

it was pancit, and it tasted like as if it was left in a bowl of patis for a day. it was GROSS.

so was the mango shake that looked like egg and tasted like... all the weird stuff mixed together.

when the girl came up and asked, "Masarap ba?"

we smiled and were like, "Oo, sarap!"

deep inside i wanted to spit it out.

Haha so that was the most memorable experience that day for us. BONDING!

oh and Sir BenCab treated me smores pa, hahahahaha! kapal ko noh??

that's all.. bleh!

disturbia

2007-07-21T03:32:00.000-10:00

It's not yet showing but i watched it already.
i bought a dvd of it, luckily, it's clear.
it's soooooo NICE!!
of course, shia labeouf eh! hahaha...
i really ENVY the girl there.
if u like shia, and u watch it, ull know why.
it's really suspense, i nearly jumed off my seat.
i LOVE it! but i like Transformers better. Best shia film ever.
hehe.

i heart SHIA!

2007-07-14T19:57:00.000-10:00

I always watched Even Stevens but I never really liked Shia LaBeouf there coz i thought he looked silly.

But now he's all grown up! damn! he's SOOOO hot!

he's currently in my top list of hollywood crushes...i never thought i would like him so much.

he's sooooo hot in Transformers, he's got the best charm, personality...and can i say...ARMS??? haha

i REALLy wanna watch Disturbia coz i think he's hotter there...

anyway, I LOOOVE SHIA!!!

hope she finds out.

2007-07-04T20:13:00.000-10:00

so joan, carmie, jannette and I did something.

vicky and some other blockmates of mine who feel the same way about 'her' will do the same.

we answered a survey entitled 'Pinaka Ayaw (panama kay ano)'.

and i hope she reads it.

i actually felt so good it was like a relief.

coz she actually deserves it after everything she's done and how she's been the whole year.

she couldn't even be aware of it at all because that's how she is!

she think's she's always right and whoever she's hating on at the moment is wrong.

maybe she's reading this right now and she's like, "Who could Pat be talking about? Definitely not me!"

i even think of myself as one of the meanest girls ever for being so mad at her but it's not my fault at all that she makes me so mad.

she brings out the hater and war freak in me.

and she deserves to hear and realize all of this.

and IF she doesn't even humble herself or at least feel bad or admit she was wrong...

that's her problem. karma's waiting just around the corner.

and maybe some of you guys think this person is you, but i just wanna make you feel relieved by saying:

it's definitely not someone on my friend's list here. at least that's a little minus because i only have three friends here coz i don't know anyone else who has blogspot. haha. because why would i add her here anyway right? i even want to delete her in multiply and friendster na but i don't want to be THAT obvious. I want to take it one step at a time but she still has to find out.

and maybe she thinks im the only one who feels this way but she's got it all wrong. actually, about 8O% feels this way even a person she looked up to and a person she fell in love with (hahaha that's something i want her to find out). i wonder how she will feel.

i never even thought that i would feel this way towards her because when i first met her i really liked her.

and i don't really care if she's offended or if she wants to fight back.

she's only one person and we're a LOT.

i actually feel bad that things turned out this way in our relationship (if there is one) with her.

well, not our fault.

so i hope she's reading this.

she can curse me for all i care..

she always does anyway.

fantastic 4

2007-07-03T02:15:00.000-10:00

Reed is charming...
Johnny is super hot...(human torch nga eh, haha)
he's...big.
she was prettier in the first one

he's...NICE!

today was my mom's birthday...

my class was 7:30-10:30am, so after that i rushed home.

around 1pm we went out and watched Fantastic 4!

super late na, good thing it was still showing.

what can i say?

it was VERY entertaining especially when compared to the first one.

I really liked it.

It was funny and cool.

Reed and Johnny were soooo charming...

i love chris and ioan...

go mickey!

2007-06-30T18:04:00.000-10:00

(i'm mickey's minnie..haha!)

i was sooooo sleepy last night but i forced myself to keep my eyes open.

It was the finale of Pinoy Big Brother Season 2.

My bet was either Mickey or Bea.

But of course I really wanted Mickey to win coz he was my favorite ever since.

The show lasted for like, three looooong hours.

I was almost falling asleep because the commercials were even longer than the show itself.

When they announced that Gee-Ann was the 4th big placer, i was relieved, most especially when they announced wendy was in 3rd place.

i actually started to not hate her so much anymore because i sort of pity her now.

She's really pretty and i felt sad for her when she came out and people didn't even let her speak.

Anyway, so it was Mickey and Bea left on the top two so i was really happy.

I was really nervous before they announced the second placer...i was like, 'bea, bea, bea, bea, bea..." coz i had a feeling mickey would win.

then when they said, "mickey..." i was like, "WTF??!"

Noooooooo!

I felt happy for Bea coz i know she needed the money but I REALLY wanted Mickey to win!!!

So I went to bed...UNHAPPY. haha.

But the best part is, a good friend of my grandmother, is actually Mickey's grandmother.

And we go to the same church as that lady and she told me she'll bring Mickey there and introduce him to me.

YEY! haha i really wanna see him...

so anyway... even if Mickey was just in second place...

im still a fan...

Oh mickey you're so fine, you're so fine you blow my mind hey Mickey!!

tired

2007-06-29T21:04:00.000-10:00

haaaayyy
super pressure!
we have loooaaads of plates to do this weekend.
its hard coz its loaded but i enjoy doing it coz i love working with poster paint.
next next week we have long test in algebra pa..
definitely gonna study hard for that...
im about to give up..
sem break na please!

new addiction

2007-06-27T18:19:00.000-10:00

the other day i bought another dvd of good charlotte called Fast Future Generation. I was so happy when I fould it coz ive been really CRAVING for a new good charlotte dvd. My first one was Good Charlotte Live in Brixton Academy, London. That was really amazing, i would have to say it's nicer than the new one, i got, but fast future generation's really interesting too.

Here's the contents:

1) Interviews about the 3rd album The Chronicles of Life and Death

2) Concerts

3) Live 8 performance (we believe)

3) Other interviews

4) Benji the DJ

5) Paul The Producer

6) Billy the Artist (really cool)

7) Joel hating on celebrities

8) Photoshoots

9) The twins going shopping

10) Meeting fans in Japan

11) Tattoos

12) Their Inspiration

13) Funny Stuff

14) Backstage stuff

15) Twins goofing off

It's really cool! I watched it three times already so far.

It's mainly about their tour in Japan and how much they loved their fans there.

I envy those japanese girls that hugged Joel..hahahaha...

Joel plays the guitar in this dvd so its cool..and new to me...

I really love it and im looking forward to finding another GC dvd! haha

im really addicted to them and they will forever be the best band ever.

When all the teeny-boppers die out, i will remain standing.

a true gc fan...harharhar.

swimming!

2007-06-27T17:56:00.000-10:00

We had swimming for our P.E. today. We'll be having it for eight meetings once a week. It's a bummer because I don't know how to swim at all. As in I really look like an idiot in the pool coz i don't move whenever i try to swim. Bright side? Well, at least I'm gonna learn how to swim. Maybe. I hope so! I don't ever wanna fail pe coz i cant swim, that sucks. Coz it's not really my fault that i can't, i just don't like swimming at all. I don't like the water and i don't like getting dark. At least the pool in Subiaco is indoor, and it's not deep at all. Anyway, that's all for now...

worst week ever.

2007-06-20T18:56:00.000-10:00

last week was the worst week ever.
not because it was the first week of school, but because i was sick during the first week.
i had a really bad cold last friday and i couldn't concentrate in class.
i was even sick during the weekend.
last sunday i slept in my aunt's house.
she had a new puppy named poochie, soooo cute.
most of my cousins were there except for melissa and sam.
the next day my aunt brought me to school, that's when I found out we were going to take up swimming for pe.
*GRRRR* hate it! i hate swimming... =( I dont wanna wear a swim suit pa. di pa pwd mag shirt.
damn it...
the next day we only had our re-orientation for 2nd yr and 3rd yr. super boring.
no signal pa...
the third day, we had our general illustration class!=)
my favorite class!=)
we did our alien landscape. sooo much fun, i love poster paint.
love it love it love it! =)
and today is our digital imaging and editing class.
i still don't know what we're about to do....

distracted.

2007-06-13T19:38:00.000-10:00

Hey guys... =)
2nd day of school.
I'm here in my Digital Imaging & Editing class.
I'm not really listening that much. Haha.
Just orientation lang.
This will probably be my fave subject this sem.
Any class with a PC and internet makes the class perfect.
And i love anything to do with Adobe Photoshop.
our prof seems really nice,
but he might still kick my ass if i keep on blogging and not listening.
so gotta go!=)

first day of sophie life.

2007-06-13T18:34:00.000-10:00

I was really excited for my first day of school, since I was already a college sophomore. It felt sooooo cool.
Our first class was College Algebra. Great way to start the first day, my hatest subject. Anyway, it was just the orientation and we just did a few exercises. The next subject was Literature. Our prof there was really young. Her name was Camille and she could actually be our blockmate. I was really irritated with the way she spoke, it was TOOO 'mean-girls'. Haha. Or even worse. But she was nice. I guess. Next, we had our looong break, 10:30-1pm. We were so bored! Coz Joan, Vicky, Patty and I were on a diet so we didn't buy food, and that was what we usually did last year, eat and eat during break. So we weren't doing anything. We were also a bit hungry. Anyway, our last subject was General Illustration, with our favorite prof, Sir Ben Cab. We really didn't do anything at all coz it was just a short orientation. So we were dismissed early, and I ate out with Melissa. I actually ruined my diet coz I ate ice cream and fries. We didn't get to spend much time together because she was sick and her dad picked her up. When I got home, I didn't eat dinner, coz of the ice cream and fries I ate. Haha... I just took a shower and then a few hours later, I went to bed... So that's all for my first day. Tomorrow again!=)

miss them.

2007-06-11T18:52:00.000-10:00

My cousins are the best friends that I could ever have. I’m not afraid to be real to them, and vice versa.
I haven’t seen all of them the whole summer, except for Melissa and Kuya Tim. Of course since Melissa is Kuya Tim’s sister I will always see them together except when Melissa sleeps over. But even if I see them more often than the others, I miss all of them equally. It’s not quite fair that I was like, drawn away from them, coz they all live really close to each other except for me that’s why I don’t get to go to their place often. I miss laughtrips with Ate Jewel, weird moments with Melissa, kulitans with Tim, bonding with Jannah, and seeing Sam. Actually, we’re only a few in the Castro family. Me, my sister Nina, Melissa, Timothy, Jewel, Jannah and Sam. That’s it. That’s why we’re so close. I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I also miss my cousins in the Luna side, and guess what, I only have two cousins there, and they’re in New York pa! Gail and Enzo are siblings and I haven’t even Enzo in my entire life yet, coz he’s just four, and he was born in the states and they haven’t come to visit yet. But I really miss Gail, she’s only nine, and she left for the states when she was two. I used to baby sit her all the time, and I was so attached to her coz I didn’t have a sister yet at that time. So anyway, I’m gonna see my Castro cousins this Sunday and I can’t wait. Melissa and I will also have more time together since school starts tomorrow (we don’t go to the same school though). Ciao!

I love Spidey =)

2007-06-11T02:55:00.000-10:00

Dad and I watched Spiderman 3 today. We both LOVE Spiderman so we just had to watch it, even last minute. I would have to say this is my favorite one among all the Spiderman films. My two crushes are there, Topher Grace and James Franco (Tobey was only cute in the first one, and he wasn’t even consistently cute there). I had so much fun watching it, there was never a dull moment (unlike Pirates 3, haha). I laughed really hard when Peter Parker did his John Travolta dance. It’s entertaining to see him as a bad ‘punk’ boy. He had eyeliner and bangs. Haha. It’s just sad that Harry had to die, I mean, he and Peter were already friends. And Topher’s role was really annoying coz they had to put him in his alien venom suit and he had fangs so I didn’t quite see the hot villain look in him towards the end. But all in all, it was one of the best movies I’ve watched this year.

Pirates of The Caribbean 3: it sucks.

2007-06-11T02:49:00.000-10:00

The first one was great, the second one was the best, the third one? The worst movie I’ve watched this year. Yep. I wasn’t even expecting it coz it’s a Johnny Depp film! It’s supposed to be nice! And it’s number one in the box office chart so how come it sucked? The movie was so damn boring. Really. I almost fell asleep. Nothing much happened. All they did was talk, talk, talk and talk. The only sort of exciting part was towards the end, the war they had with the british people (were they british? O well). Of course, Jack Sparrow was really funny, he always is, so he saved the movie for me. And if you’re gonna watch it, watch it ‘til the very end after the credits even if you’re the only one left in the theatre, just like what happened to me. Haha. So if I’m gonna grade this film, I’d give it a D-.

not so heavenly tagaytay

2007-06-11T02:35:00.000-10:00

At Estancia...
Picnic grove
Little sis flying her kite...

Yesterday, I went to Tagaytay with my family. I haven’t been there for ages, so it was like going there for the first time. I really expected paradise, but what I got was…well…the opposite. OK, it was not as bad as hell though. Haha. Melissa and her family loves going there that’s why I suggested the place to my parents, because I thought it was really amazing there. I mean, why would they love it if it sucks right? That’s when I realized we’re all entitled to our own opinion. So they love it, I didn’t. Seriously, it’s not nice there. Maybe except for the fact that you won’t get sweaty coz the air is cold and fresh. So we first went to Picnic Grove, the place I wanted to leave right away (that’s why my pictures don’t look so good coz I wasn’t that contented). I think the only highlight there was watching my sister fly her 80 peso kite (haha I wouldn’t spend 80 pesos for a dumb kite), and she looked SO thrilled (good for her). So after Picnic Grove, we ate lunch, and then we went to Club Estancia. Yeah, I expected too much. The resort didn’t even look like a resort. It just looked like a house with two pools and a Jacuzzi. But if it would be my house, then THAT would be incredible, haha coz it’s beautiful, but for a resort, not so. I was forced to swim even though I didn’t want to, coz there was nothing else to do. I got darker and that’s the number one thing I hate about swimming. So after the two-hour swim (for me, four hours for my sister), we had our merienda and last minute sight-seeing, and boy I was glad to go home! It took us to hours before we got home because it was traffic in Alabang that time. Super traffic. The cars weren’t moving. Positive side, it was way better than being stuck at home and of course, family bonding. Negative side, I can’t stop counting the negative sides. I just couldn’t tell my parents we should’ve went to Island Cove, Cavite (where we always go) instead coz it was WAY WAY WAY nicer there. Coz if I told them, they might kill me coz I was the one who suggested Tagaytay coz I thought it was all that. Stupid me. Oh well. So you think I had fun? Do the math. =)

two days to go

2007-06-10T04:07:00.000-10:00

Monday, June 13, 2007, officially the start of my second year in college.
Whaaaaaaaaaaaattt...
Damn. I don't know if I should be excited or not.
I kinda miss being a frosh but really into being a sophie.
So I'm really in between. I don't know if I should really look forward to this year.
Coz i have a feeling i shouldn't.

hottest prisoner

2007-06-10T03:40:00.001-10:00

Wentworth Miller is the hottest prisoner I've ever seen in my entire life. Well, Michael Scoffield is (until now I'm not sure of the last name), the character he plays in the TV series. Prison Break is one of my favorite 'can't miss' TV shows and that's all because of Wentworth. If he wasn't in it I wouldn't really watch it. Haha. Cuz he's so charming that's why. The plot is great to, it will always make you want to watch the whole season in one sitting, coz you can't stand you wait for another week to watch the next episode. Haha... o well... watch it!

four days with my soulmate

2007-06-10T03:29:00.000-10:00

It wasn't Melissa's BEST sleepover in my place, but I still enjoyed it because I missed her soooo much.

So she came here around 2pm on May 3. We were wearing our identical Archie kamiseta. Childish? Haha well it was what we used to

do when we were younger. We have other identical clothes. It's fun sometimes. Haha. But now, we don't do it in public. Her third day here was the worst. We had our little 'secret' experience in ATC. Hilarious isn't it, MEL? Haha. Nina practically abused Melissa during her stay.

Literally ABUSED. I miss you best friend!